Harlequin's explination, apology, and other shit...?

So this isn't really a 'going away' thread, but rather it's more of an explanation as to why the hell I just up and vanished. I don't really like to admit it, but a major part of it was a tie between school and having bloody panic attacks nearly every day, and being sick. I've been trying to get caught back up in my English class, which normally wouldn't be to horribly hard for me, but the teacher is a complete and utter bitch. She doesn't take late work and bitches me for being sick. Straight up told her I'm not going to show my face at school if I break down and have a GD panic attack. -.- Either way, she expects me to get everything I missed done, and the shit ton of homework she always gives in one night. Which, honestly, I haven't been getting it done. I've been half assing everything she's going to look at and leaving the rest for nights that I have no homework ( which is rare. ) On top of that, I've been having panic attacks on a regular basis. Why? Not really sure, and it pisses me off a bit. Probably school over stressing my mind and making me flip.  Ha. I've also been sick ( which has resulted in.. Five? Six? Maybe seven 'you better not be using drugs' lectures, since my mum is equating everything I have with a fucking come down. ), light headed-ness, dizziness, nausea, tired ALL the damn time, and an utter lack of energy ( just laid down in the kitchen floor one day when I got home and didn't move for a straight hour. ) Not to mention the stress my parents are putting on me to you know, drive more since I can get my licenses  after the fifteenth of this month, and have to thus show them that I can actually handle the mustang and you know. Not kill myself or just up and leave like they think I'm constantly going to do.

Anyways, now that my bitch of a ramble is done... I really just wanted to say that I'll hopefully be around more sometime this week, or the next. Once I get this damn book project, essay, and damn presentation done for English and get caught up in my creative writing class, and stop shitting around in my American History class. >__> <__< Being in a class with attractive girls isn't a good thing for me. I can't not look at them..  Anyways, basically once I get my ass in gear, an' not so stressed, I'll be around more, and get Asher finished, I promise. <3 I love you guys ( yes even those of you who don't know who the fuck I am. Haha. )