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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2013 21:25:08 GMT
So. -Takes a deep breath-
This is going to sound wayyy too melodramatic, but I've been dreading the time when I have to say goodbye to CR, or at least role-playing, for several years now. The thing is, I'm almost in my last year of school, and I've definably not been feeling as if I'm doing my best. (I know, in some ways, who cares?) But the thing is, the school I'm going to is not cheap to go to, to say the least. And I really want to know how well I can do when at my best.
And it always seems to come down to giving up something in this situation. Next year, I'll be in a least three music ensembles for school (several of the top ones at my school), which equals four rehearsals a week. I also have to factor in the time I need to practise my instrument at home, walk my dog in the afternoon, do chores, have dinner, shower, etc, and still have plenty of time to do homework/assignments and sleep. Plus I have a book I want to werite/ at least get somewhere with within the next few years. And I'm not good at juggling all these things, because I am one of those people who is very easily distracted, and I usually take ages (as in at least twice as long as anyone else) to get things finished - whether it be a chore, an assignment, or anything of that kind.
And sadly, with all this stuff that I want/need to do with my life, roleplaying doesn't fit on this agenda. I love CR and I love you guys, as well as all the characters I've had and the one I've got now. But for some reason, I can't focus on the characters in my book when I've got Valkyrie, and during term time, I find it hard to find time to post, but I come on here and procrastinate wayy too much anyway.
Sorry for the huge explanation/rant and everything, but I really didn't want to leave you guys with just a "CR is great but I have to quit rping, kthxbai". I aplogise profusely to Pic, Zen, and Smiff, and anyone else I was going to thread with. This is one of those times where real life has to come first, and if it doesn't, I'm just afraid of whether or not I'll be able to be an independent, even slightly sociable human being with ambitions and a purpose in life. That's being extreme, but that's how I feel about it sometimes.
Anyway, I love you guys, and CR, and I've had an absolutely awesome time and learned so much from you all over the last 3-4 years. I don't think anyone could forget all the crazy, fun times I've had on this site!
I've considered asking Pic to let me stay on as a staff member without any characters, but I think even that might be too distracting for me. I should be able to reply to this thread in the next few days, but after that I'll most likely delete my account (mainly to prevent the temptation). I might come on during holidays to chat, but otherwise, you can find me at my somewhat dusty deviantArt, here.
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Post by Zen on Oct 3, 2013 0:56:53 GMT
Yeah...you pretty much just summed up my life in one sentence. I struggle with this feeling every day too. Sadly, spending all your free time on the internet is not conducive to a good social life lol, so I absolutely don't blame you for your decision Mac. The only way to really build up confidence and social skills is to just put yourself out there in the world, meet people and do things. Hopefully you'll eventually manage to find a good balance between real life responsibilities and rping, and maybe someday you can come back and join us again ^^
Good luck with school and whatever else the future brings you, and take care <3
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Post by Pluton Leader Smiff on Oct 3, 2013 4:12:34 GMT
Aw Mac, I'm going to miss you so much <3. But, as you said, real life does come first! I hope we'll still speak in the future. And good luck! It sounds like you have an eventful year in front of you!
All the best,
Smiffy
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Post by Picasso on Oct 3, 2013 9:10:37 GMT
OH MY GOD THIS IS THE WORST THREAD TO JUST WAKE UP TO ;_;
But I completely understand your decision. It'll be nice if you pop into the cbox every one in a while <3 A five minute chat? Plz? Plz plz plz?
Good luck with your life! I should probably do the same.. y'know, actually leave my flat and make friends, but fuck it. -clings to Zen-
I hope to speak to you soon :C
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Post by Mika on Oct 3, 2013 13:21:32 GMT
I can't drive, I don't have a job, and I'm stuck living at my grandmothers house. I'm not sure what I can say other than good luck and hope you'll be able to come back and say hi sometimes.
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Post by Hunter on Oct 3, 2013 18:10:29 GMT
Aw Mac nooo D: I’ll miss you so much! I hope you’ll find a balance, that you somehow between all your busy stuff will find time to stop by and say hi, and maybe come back in the future <3 Go have an awesome time – go get some great friends, go rock the world with your music, go man up and be independent and ambitious with all the woman-awesomeness in you, and stay true to yourself at the same time. Always stay true to yourself – doing things that isn’t you doesn’t make it easier to look at yourself in the mirror. I know you now it, but still! I think I’m the second oldest around here, I can give you guys all the classic advice I want, because I can and will! I hope to see you soon again Mac *kisses and one big wolf-hug* <3
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Post by Deleted on Oct 3, 2013 22:59:30 GMT
Thank you, guys, for being so supportive and understanding! <3333 This'll be my last post, then I'll be deleting my account. ;; . ;; I'll miss you all (all meaning you guys who have posted and those who haven't) <33 </3
Zen - I'm not alone! :'D Thanks for the advice - you take care and good luck with everything life throws your way, too. <33 It would be awesome if I could come back fully someday, but in the meantime hopefully I'll catch you for a chat sometime in the near-ish future.
Pluton Leader Smiff Thanks, Smiffers <33 I definetely hope we can chat sometime in the future. Good luck with college/uni and all your endeavours in life, and look after yourself. <33
Picasso Gahh, I'm sorry for having made your day worse, Pic! I think I should definitely be able to be on to chat once in a while, I really don't want to completely lose touch with you guys. Thanks, and good luck with yours, too, lolol! <33 I'm unlikely to be on Facebook much, I really don't use it any more as it's just another distraction. But I will come on here to chat from time to time, when I have time! <3
Mika - I'm sure that can all change in the future if you want it to! It doesn't sound like too bad a life to me, but I can't really judge because I'm not you. <33 C: Thanks, and good luck to you too. I hope we can chat sometime too!
Hunter - I'll miss you tooo <3 D: I definetely think I could manage a chat once in a while, and I'll see about coming back once life settles down. Thankyou so much for your encouragement/advice - I shall try to do my best! XD <33 ; . ; -Returns the kiss and hug-
-Hugs everyone tightlyy and doesn't let go for hourss- I love you all, and I'll miss you all very much. ; . ; <333333 CR has been a big part of my life for ages, and I just want to thank you guys for being who your are - every one of you - and keep being yourselves. God Bless (even if you don't believe in him! ;D)
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Post by Kezz on Oct 4, 2013 16:47:14 GMT
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Post by ~Jay~ on Oct 13, 2013 22:41:00 GMT
We'll miss you Mac, but we understand completely.
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